In the midst of it all

Sometimes we come to a point in our lives where we find ourselves at the edge, we choose not to jump but most of us just stay there at the "edge" just watchin, just chillin and enjoying the breeze. Probably enjoying the stress that makes us feel strangely alive or because it is the only way you realize your purpose, weirdly enough. I feel that sometimes we lose ourselves along the way, it is not something bad rather it is something that is normal and probably happens to a lot of us, we forget the things we love doing, our little hobbies, those little vices that we hide from others, those indulges that makes us feel guilty once in a while, and any of those places that just brings back nostalgia to our lives. I realize that sometimes we need to do those things well not to prove anything but just to bring that balance back to our lives, that wake up call. Then you go back again to your own daily routine life, but feeling strangely better. blogging used to make me feel not-alone, I mean I've always felt it is a place where you can express your thoughts, post some poems, share your own reviews, share your online creative drama (hehe) I mean we are all entitled to that. It is indeed nice to be back again.

Winter is coming

Since day one, im already a cult follower of GOT. Like a lover waiting every week, every month..even a year. Its like they become your past, part of your years. Well, the thing about GOT, its fresh and blunt, like what-you-is-what-you-get story set in a world before everything else. the characters are fresh, raw and even the story. You just dont get hooked on one character, you get to experience different world, emotions along with them. It gives you a high for about 2 to 3 months then leaves you longing again..oh god when will it end. hehe. Ive always been impressed with HBO programming, their series are always the best and to look out for. I still miss "entourage" they're like your normal guy friends who annoys you a lot, but their friendship is inspiring.

I look forward for daenerys rise to the kingdom or probably interact with the others. I know Jon Snow isnt dead..i know he would be brought up from the dead. Hes way too cute to be dead. Lady sanza, i hope they give her more power, we are tired of seeing her cry so much...oh well, il watch it now.

Just one of the nerds

Last year while browsing some upcoming tv shows, i found this tv show Scorpion tv series. Its about a bunch of "highly intellectual individuals"  i.e. nerds. its moreover like based on this highly intelligent guy who was a bit controversial since he hacked NASA on a very young age (Walter O' Brien), well the producers played a bit between the actual person to the fictional one since the guy in the tv show is actually cuter than the real one. (no offense intended)

Anyhow, i've been quite addicted to it. Mainly because i like tv shows where i learn something although most of the time, don't really understand the estimates, physics etc.. but it makes you think. Plus nerdy guys are sexy to me and interesting. 

What would i be like if i did have an IQ of 197, where everything i say is so scientific and always based on data analysis. Now i begin to sound like one. I'd probably more un-dateable.. :)

Symbiotic Sounds

I guess juggling between stress from work, friends and family can sometimes be a bad combination. But it pays to be in a schedule from time to time; you will always get to have a reason to say no to going out. Although i must say the weather is good, and sometimes girls just want to have fun

i did found some good music to fill up the missed blog days and i finished a good book as well.

Found this really cool bands

•  Flowers de moon - psychedelic sounds with playful beats and sultry vocals

• Wild Child - like a country band but with female vocal..one to look out for.

• EXES - with the likes of BANKS and Alina Baraz

And of course while browsing the music media.. i have always been a fan of Carmody since her collaboration with Tom Misch.. (So Close)

It just reminds you the scene while driving after a night out with friends..



" I still find you in my skin.. Can you feel me in your skin...I still find you"

the time is now

its kinda weird since last two days, i cannot stop dreaming of being in another place or country. I mean literally in another country. Well i could tell in my dreams it looked unfamiliar and i am in another side of the world. creepy but interesting. I do have plans of travelling but i did not quite expect it would even haunt in my dreams. i think my subconscious is telling me that the time is now. hell, what am i waiting for, i could take few days off before the next workdays start, why not. its also a good way to think about my life, things that have happened, changes i have been dreading and a routine away from my stressful ever crazy life. i choose to be unattached for now,because i feel if i enter a relationship, i just shook it up and i may have done something wrong considering my past relationships never viewed me as the best forever partner , besides its good to have less stress. Maybe in a few months i will change, but then again, i just wanted a peace of mind and more partying. hehe.

I will go.somewhere. definitely.

on a sabbatical

sabbatical according to google means taking a break for at least a year..whether its a career break or something else. im taking a sabbatical from intimate relationships. No dating for the meantime, meeting people is good or hanging out is good. I have decided because i think i need more time to find myself and get to know what i really want. we all have this phase, but all through this life, being in love has become a habit, the craziness of it probably got me tired. Yeah life is boring without being intimate with anyone, but then i didnt say i wouldnt meet men, only a break from relationships.

i think i have gotten to the point amidst all the heartbreaks, disappointments and unhappy marriages of my friends plus my own personal dramas, has totally worn me out. I guess this would pave the way of giving myself a chance to do my own things , dealing with my own fears and hopefully travelling.

this chaotic life should be fixed, first before anything.

near the shoreline

oh please take me back to the sandy beaches..and morning breeze of salt water..an afternoon commune with sun and ocean.

when life gets tough..one deserves an escape, a break, a chance to unwind.