Saturday, March 12, 2016

the time is now



its kinda weird since last two days, i cannot stop dreaming of being in another place or country. I mean literally in another country. Well i could tell in my dreams it looked unfamiliar and i am in another side of the world. creepy but interesting. I do have plans of travelling but i did not quite expect it would even haunt in my dreams. i think my subconscious is telling me that the time is now. hell, what am i waiting for, i could take few days off before the next workdays start, why not. its also a good way to think about my life, things that have happened, changes i have been dreading and a routine away from my stressful ever crazy life. i choose to be unattached for now,because i feel if i enter a relationship, i just shook it up and i may have done something wrong considering my past relationships never viewed me as the best forever partner , besides its good to have less stress. Maybe in a few months i will change, but then again, i just wanted a peace of mind and more partying. hehe.

I will go.somewhere. definitely.

Friday, March 4, 2016

on a sabbatical





sabbatical according to google means taking a break for at least a year..whether its a career break or something else. im taking a sabbatical from intimate relationships. No dating for the meantime, meeting people is good or hanging out is good. I have decided because i think i need more time to find myself and get to know what i really want. we all have this phase, but all through this life, being in love has become a habit, the craziness of it probably got me tired. Yeah life is boring without being intimate with anyone, but then i didnt say i wouldnt meet men, only a break from relationships.

i think i have gotten to the point amidst all the heartbreaks, disappointments and unhappy marriages of my friends plus my own personal dramas, has totally worn me out. I guess this would pave the way of giving myself a chance to do my own things , dealing with my own fears and hopefully travelling.

this chaotic life should be fixed, first before anything.

near the shoreline





oh please take me back to the sandy beaches..and morning breeze of salt water..an afternoon commune with sun and ocean.

when life gets tough..one deserves an escape, a break, a chance to unwind.