An epiphany.Sometimes at some point, when we try so hard to control our own lives we tend to break it more. Its like holding on a bottle so tight then suddenly it breaks into pieces. Its like grabbing to a rope so thin, but we put all our weight, on it and we fall...
i must have been so cynical at this life that i have failed at seeing many things in a different perspective. I guess i was used to trying to prove myself to someone else or others that i am always better. But its not like that. It was never like that. I thought life would come up with instructions then i am too stupid to have expected that. Nonetheless let other people run it. Somehow its good to take the backseat for a while. I am tired of driving. literally and probably metaphorically speaking. At some point, you just want to take that backseat of the car and see how other people react to it. No one is really happy, but we find the contentment at ourselves, at the choices we make.
You realize, the reason your choices fail is because you expect someone will make you better or something will happen to make your life easier or better than its supposed to be. I guess some of us are just too scared to admit how scared they are. I am scared, but i am not weak. Although i am dumb sometimes, but i get by. nobody makes too many mistakes where nobody is perfect.
No comments:
Post a Comment